Separation

I am one with God. God is Love. God is Mind. God creates Christ, the Son of God.

I, a thought in the Christ mind, wondered what it would be like to be separate, and, instead of laughing at the absurdness of this impossibility, I entertained the thought of being an individual doing my own thing.

Since separation is impossible in reality, I (this thought) had to split off into a dream. To be effectively split off and different, this dream required a thought system opposite to the thoughts of God. So I made up the ego thought system and adopted it. Now, from the perspective of my insane thought system, I felt guilty about usurping God’s role and feared He would be angry and destroy me.

To get rid of my guilt and fear, I made a world of form and time in which to hide. I split my mind again into a few billion pieces. In this world I can project my guiltiness onto others by (unconsciously) asking them to attack me. I am "innocent," which makes my fear of them normal. Naturally I need to defend myself, and ultimately, if they’re going to be so bad, I have to kill them before they kill me.

This hiding place and projection game would be useless, however, if I could still remember who I was and why I made it up, but I have forgotten both. The false thought system is imprinted in each mind fragment so that each believes it is a body.

But in reality there is no separation. I have been dreaming an insane dream. And I can awaken by using the forgiveness process to disprove the ego thought system and invite God's thoughts back into my mind.

Into eternity, where all is one, there crept a tiny, mad idea, at which the Son of God remembered not to laugh. In his forgetting did the thought become a serious idea, and possible of both accomplishment and real effects. Together, we can laugh them both away, and understand that time cannot intrude upon eternity. It is a joke to think that time can come to circumvent eternity, which means there is no time. T-27.VIII.6:2-5

You may be surprised to hear how very different is reality from what you see. You do not realize the magnitude of that one error. It was so vast and so completely incredible that from it a world of total unreality had to emerge. What else could come of it? Its fragmented aspects are fearful enough, as you begin to look at them. But nothing you have seen begins to show you the enormity of the original error, which seemed to cast you out of Heaven, to shatter knowledge into meaningless bits of disunited perceptions, and to force you to make further substitutions.

That was the first projection of error outward. The world arose to hide it, and became the screen on which it was projected and drawn between you and the truth. For truth extends inward, where the idea of loss is meaningless and only increase is conceivable. Do you really think it strange that a world in which everything is backwards and upside down arose from this projection of error? It was inevitable. For truth brought to this could only remain within in quiet, and take no part in all the mad projection by which this world was made. Call it not sin but madness, for such it was and so it still remains. Invest it not with guilt, for guilt implies it was accomplished in reality. And above all, be not afraid of it. T-18.I.5-6.

Nothing more fearful than an idle dream has terrified God's Son, and made him think that he has lost his innocence, denied his Father, and made war upon himself. So fearful is the dream, so seeming real, he could not waken to reality without the sweat of terror and a scream of mortal fear, unless a gentler dream preceded his awaking, and allowed his calmer mind to welcome, not to fear, the Voice that calls with love to waken him; a gentler dream, in which his suffering was healed and where his brother was his friend. God willed he waken gently and with joy, and gave him means to waken without fear. T-27.Vll.13:3-5

As a creation of God, a thought of God, I have a mad idea, to “play by myself,” to be separate, and I forget to laugh it off. Because this is impossible in reality, I have to fall asleep to pull it off.

Produces (an illusory) consciousness, duality, my mind and something else. I now have the mind of a perceiver. I think I’m separate; the memory of God is repressed, unconscious. What I think of as "consciousness" is an opposite thought system, the domain of the ego.

Right Mind

the memory of home

in God/Holy Spirit

Wrong Mind

the thought of

separation and the ego

This produces identification with the ego. The Holy Spirit is now only an unconscious memory. I look to the ego to tell me who I am.

The ego tells me I sinned against God, that God is enraged with me and wants to kill me. I feel tremendous guilt and fear. The ego offers a defense. I go along with the ego’s idea and choose to hide, causing

The Fourth Division of the Mind (With the power of my mind to make illusions, the method of my escape becomes manifest.)

This produces the Big Bang, the universe illusion. I appear to be a body in it. I project my unconscious guilt onto others, producing a whole new level of acting out with guilt as the driving force. God, and everything else, is now outside of me. I’m a virtual robot being used by the ego thought system.

Dream - A series of images occurring involuntarily in the mind during sleep.

Projection - Unconsciously attributing one’s own attitudes or feelings to someone else as a defense against anxiety or guilt.

Repression - Unconsciously excluding painful or unwanted thoughts from the conscious mind.

Delusion - A false belief strongly held in spite of invalidating evidence, especially as a symptom of mental illness.

You … do not understand the language you have made. It has no meaning, for its purpose is not communication, but rather the disruption of communication. If the purpose of language is communication, how can this tongue mean anything? Yet even this strange and twisted effort to communicate through not communicating holds enough of love to make it meaningful if its Interpreter is not its maker. You who made it are but expressing conflict, from which the Holy Spirit would release you. Leave what you would communicate to Him. He will interpret it to you with perfect clarity, for He knows with Whom you are in perfect communication. ACIM T-14.VI.6:1-7 … He will separate out all that has meaning, dropping off the rest and offering your true communication to those who would communicate as truly with you. ACIM T-14.VI.7:4